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Peace with the Past

We all have a past. Our past is whaylt defines who we are today and what we have become. We learned things, sometimes consciously and other times unconsciously. Is what we have learned always what we want?! No, it is not, and that does not mean that we need to go back in time to change it to what we want. It only means that we learned what we needed to learn in order to survive today. What we must focus on is the lesson and deal with it in a way that will benefit us in the most way possible.

In my life, I had to learn many lessons on my own, mostly in the absence of the most basic needs of life, family and friends. It was not easy. It was not fun. It was, at times, suicidal; until today.

I need to make peace with my past. I need to make peace with my past. I need to make peace with my past.

just like that.

so I’m in a writing mood and I really miss her! 

Sometimes I remember the moments we spent together and I wonder if it was just a phase that was gonna pass by and we live a happy ever after sorta thing. I ask myself “did I make the right decision when I broke it all off? or should I’ve waited a bit more and held on a bit stronger?” It’s strange what love does to us. People come and go complaining about love and all the misery it’s put them through.

Have we really messed up love that bad or has love messed us up that bad?!

It’s really not worth it asking ourselves those lame unanswerable questions!

Just live it and let it all be, whoever and whatever wants to stick around will stick around; whether you like it or not.


night night,

Let’s…? Let’s.

sitting with a friend of mine, complaining about work and so on, we decided we start our own company. On the spot, all the adrenaline ran through my veins and I felt so excited that I almost had an orgasm. Of course, with all the negative energy I’ve been dealing with for the past few months, I needed something to keep me busy and change my mood. Some would say why not keep busy with work and all the tasks that need to be done, but believe me it’s a whole different feeling when you’re trying to start your own thing.


Will take some time to get public but I’ll make sure I keep you updated.


So far we’ve found enough resources to actually launch, but with all resources, you need to make sure they’re qualified to get this thing somewhere rather than just kill it on the long run. As far as now, I’m still waiting to see the results and I’m very confident that they’ll be great.


Pray it all goes well so I could tell you the detailed version of the story 😉


See you soon.

We live.

We live in a world where everything has become so materialistic and shallow. Looking at life from a detailed perspective, you find so many depressing facts that we live with in denial of their existence. Some say “be optimistic and have faith.” what if I have faith but no optimism?! Could you please define ‘faith’…Sometimes I look into people’s eyes and try to figure out what they mean by what they’re saying, and if they really do mean what they say and apply it or just say it…It’s very rare to find a person who actually does what he/she says…


yet, we live…


to be continued..


I always tend to fall in love, but the truth about love makes me run away. I always tend to listen, but the fact that people rarely listen I tend to talk about what I don’t want to talk about. I always tend to go with the flow, but the normality of the flow scares me and gets me to go against it.

I always tend but never do.